• Diary,  Journal

    In Search for Answers

    I live in fear of having these core beliefs reaffirmed, of being found out as the horrible person that I feel inside. Under-qualified and overpaid, selfish and un-creative.

  • Diary

    2020/12/08 (Tue)

    Here I am noticing the pattern, noticing the guilt I feel for under-performing, my perfectionism still running deep, still raising hurdles every so very often.

  • Diary

    2020/11/29 (Sun)

    I… I’m terrified. Outright frozen with fear of pouring all this precious time and effort into something that will not pay off, something that I’ll get sick of and lose interest in the end, wishing that I had put effort…

  • Diary

    Forcing a hobby

    My fight with “the 3 Ps ”: perfectionism, procrastination and productivity

  • Diary

    2019/11/8 (Fri) 09:40

    I feel like there haven’t been actual people that insulted my art, it was more of an overall sense of rejection.