Writing about Writing
I am terrified of writing and of having to face my own mediocrity.
In Search for Answers
I live in fear of having these core beliefs reaffirmed, of being found out as the horrible person that I feel inside. Under-qualified and overpaid, selfish and un-creative.
2020/12/08 (Tue)
Here I am noticing the pattern, noticing the guilt I feel for under-performing, my perfectionism still running deep, still raising hurdles every so very often.
2020/11/29 (Sun)
I… I’m terrified. Outright frozen with fear of pouring all this precious time and effort into something that will not pay off, something that I’ll get sick of and lose interest in the end, wishing that I had put effort…
Forcing a hobby
My fight with “the 3 Ps ”: perfectionism, procrastination and productivity
Circles
I sit my sorry-ass down, forever a pretender.
2019/11/8 (Fri) 09:40
I feel like there haven’t been actual people that insulted my art, it was more of an overall sense of rejection.
